Doing My Best ๐Ÿ˜ž๐Ÿ’ง

I figured it was time to post another update since Iโ€™m in bed and in too much pain to do anything other than be on my phone.

Iโ€™ve been a bit distant on Discord and Telegram and not super active on my blogโ€ฆ apologiesโ€ฆ itโ€™s a variety of reasons.

๐ŸŽˆ I was dealing with PMS, and now my actual period, physically I feel like garbage.
๐ŸŽˆ We have a very stressful situation at home, namely, my husband has a somewhat reasonable possibility of losing his job. Itโ€™s gonna be touch and go for at least another week (unless we get terrible news today.) Itโ€™s not COVID related, but if it happens, COVID means itโ€™ll be very difficult for him to find another job and I donโ€™t know what becomes of us then. Iโ€™ve been as supportive and positive as I can be, but in the meantime a bunch of my tics have returned due to the stress. So Iโ€™m like โ€œeverything is going to be okay, youโ€™ll seeโ€ while my anxiety-riddled brain decides that itโ€™s time to furiously blink 10 times in 5 seconds. Itโ€™s great. /s
๐ŸŽˆ I finally undertook sorting a serious mess of art files and that has been taking a lot of my time, though itโ€™s going really well.
๐ŸŽˆ Iโ€™m working a lot on my books despite no progress posted online. Thatโ€™s also been taking a bunch of my time.
๐ŸŽˆ Iโ€™m working on commissions a lot.
๐ŸŽˆ Iโ€™m working on commercial art.
๐ŸŽˆ Iโ€™m working on personal art, too.

Add to this other recent events (Grandpaโ€™s passing away, and my MRI scare) andโ€ฆ I guess Iโ€™ve been feeling a little overwhelmed. Itโ€™s been a lot. Iโ€™ve also been stress eating a lot and not exercising enoughโ€ฆ itโ€™s all taking a toll on me.

Of course good things are happening all the time tooโ€ฆ I feel my life is great, itโ€™s just stressful right now.

I would say though the biggest reasons for my silence is work. I really want to catch up on commissions, particularly a comic commission for Snow and a big one for Mwako, as well as that last one for Island with the complex BG. So Iโ€™m trying, Iโ€™m trying really hard.

I forgot to mention one more thing: for a full week I was dealing with a lot of shoulder and arm pain due to poor posture when drawing (the pain would wake me up in the middle of the night.) I had to rearrange my work method and areas to solve the problem (which I managed) but in the meantime, it caused a further slowdown. Iโ€™m so sorry about that.

One thing you all may have noticed is that recently Iโ€™ve mostly taken artistic freedom work. I think this, and YCHs, may become my new normal. It works out better, and I can churn them out faster. And you guys seem to prefer my artistic freedom stuff anyway.

Iโ€™ll make another post/s to update on other things. I just wanted to explain why Iโ€™m quiet (and will continue to be.) You guys are still free to reach out to me, just remember I prefer to keep anything resembling small talk to the Discord SERVER rather than DMs. And please donโ€™t send me anything thatโ€™s just like โ€œhiโ€. Even if weโ€™re friends, if all you say is โ€œhiโ€ or โ€œheyโ€ Iโ€™m not going to respond. I think what happens to me is that if I donโ€™t know where a conversation is going/how long itโ€™s going to be, I become anxious. It probably all boils down to that. Iโ€™m far more likely to engage in anything resembling small talk if you do it in the channels on my Discord rather than via DM, but I am not always able to. Iโ€™m sorry.

Anyway. Iโ€™m gonna take some painkillers and try to get more work done. I wish you all the loveliest of days!

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