Birthday Dinner! ๐ŸŽˆ

Today was an amazing day. My husband and our partner took me on an โœจ extremely โœจ fancy birthday dinner at Komodo in Miami! I got to have their famous Pikachu drink. It really knocked me on my ass ๐Ÿ˜

Every bit of food was incredible. I forget the name of my meal; honestly, I was drunk. But it was amazing. So were the appetizers, and the ambience.

My dessert was so prettyโ€ฆ ๐ŸŽ‚โœจ

On another note we ordered Chipotle for lunch and of course our partner made my bowl name embarrassing… ๐Ÿ™„๐Ÿ˜’

Kitties Galore ๐Ÿฑ๐Ÿ’•โœจ

Over the past couple of weeks I’ve collected a bunch of photos of our kitties, so I figured I’d lump them all in one post. Enjoy!

๐Ÿฑ Tomoyo ๐Ÿฑ

These photos are from a day when I was playing with my Switch in bed and Tomoyo came to lay on my chest.

๐Ÿฑ Rosemary ๐Ÿฑ

Rosie was trying to get my attention while I cleaned the bathroom (she’s surrounded by bathroom things I moved to the guest room). Notice the blep!

This photo is from when our partner and I returned from a walk. We found Rosie having a stretchy nap outside. She was completely zonked out.

๐Ÿฑ Kotoko + Elliot ๐Ÿฑ

When we came out to pet Rosie after the previous photo, all the kitties came up to us, rolling on the ground and trying to get attention. Here’s Kotoko and Elliot:

๐Ÿฑ Elliot And Rosemary ๐Ÿฑ

Recently there was a really bad thunderstorm, so Elliot, who spends most of his waking hours on the porch, came upstairs with me. Rosie clearly needed comforting as well, because she got her little face right up to his.

That’s it for cats… trying to catch up on a bunch of stuff. More posts coming.

Rollercoaster ๐ŸŽข๐Ÿ˜ข

The last couple of weeks have been rough. Heck, the last month has, but especially the last few days. It seems like every other day something happens to send me into a deep spiral of emotional turmoil, and I hardly recover from one before it happens again.

My computer dying was one of the recent things. Thankfully my husband fixed it, generously covered the cost of a new motherboard and processor and even moved everything just as it was (Windows install and all) so nothing at all is different. Drivers etc everything is just as before except of course for the things that are no longer part of my computer. We removed associated software and added what actually was needed, as well as moved the Windows license, and I had to log in again to a few services (Steam, Adobe, iCloud, thatโ€™s mostly it).

A lot of the recent stuff that happened (cruise, COVID, iPad dying, computer dying, extended friend visits) left only small pockets of time to work on art, so a lot of my stuff is currently a bit delayed. I canโ€™t emphasize how much of a difference my commissionerโ€™s patience makes. But even so, knowing people are waiting longer than they should have makes me unhappy. Iโ€™m hoping that life can justโ€ฆ calm down. I need some normal downtime when nothing is happening but art.

Thereโ€™s also just been stuff that is too personal to get into. With me being someone who talks about so much private stuff you know that it is rare for me to say anything is โ€œtoo personal to talk aboutโ€. But recently, some stuff just is, and it is stuff that does affect me very intensely as far as emotions and mental well-being.

So Iโ€™ve had some high highs, but also some deeply crushing lows recently and I kinda keep those private so people mostly donโ€™t know, not even close friends.

A TL,DR would be: for a variety of reasons, I really havenโ€™t been okay at times. Iโ€™m also pretty confident that everything is going to BE okay. Sometimes life has conflict. Sometimes some stuff just takes a ๐Ÿ’ฉ. But I admit I did have times, recently, when I felt completely hopeless and unhappy regarding certain things. And I don’t think this feeling is just gone, I think it’s going to be coming back and worrying me for a while.

I think Iโ€™m on an upswing again, and Iโ€™m trying my hardest to be a positive force in my own life towards fixing those things that are negatives. Fix what I can and accept what I canโ€™t. Iโ€™m trying. If I could, I would probably seek counseling to better handle the things that upset me.

With that said, between my mental state and everything else that has been going on, itโ€™s certainly affected my artistic output. But I have never stopped working on art. I know no one has complained, but I still feel a need to both apologize and reassure.

Ultimately 70% of the reason behind my slowdown has been technical (related to my equipment/getting used to new equipment) Iโ€™m pretty good at pushing through my work even when Iโ€™m not emotionally okay. With both my iPad and computer being now new or basically the equivalent of new, hopefully that is the end of those slowdowns.

The rest has been related to family/friends/travel, and the last big event on that front is Mwako visiting me again soon. Once that visit has passed, I should be working at a normal pace again for the foreseeable future.

I should add (as Iโ€™ve mentioned before) that if you see updates on my blog slow down to a crawl it usually means Iโ€™m not okay. Itโ€™s just that I no longer vomit all of my depression and personal grievances quite in the same manner I used to all over social media. I donโ€™t want to use Twitter or my followers as a dumping ground for mental health issues and constant negativity. Constant rants and toxic vents rightfully drive people away, and some years ago I made a conscious decision to stop being that kind of person, because when others did that, it affected my own mental health.

I guess this also makes it a little harder to know if Iโ€™m ok or not. So, once in a while, I do a little check-in if this sort. I’m here, I’m working through some stuff. Please continue to bear with me.

Heavenly Dreams Puzzle ๐ŸŒ™๐Ÿงฉ

Today I completed another puzzle! ๐Ÿงฉ๐ŸŒˆ๐Ÿ™Œ This one is a bit of a breather, just 100 pieces, because my next one will be my biggest challenge yet at 500. I really love the colored pencil art of this one!

Here you can see it in more detail:

Despite being just 100 pieces, the pieces are massive, so it is still sizable, and will also take a spot in my mom in law’s puzzle wall. ๐Ÿ˜

Kayaking At Night ๐Ÿ›ถ

This weekend my mom in law visited us! She had to leave way early today but we still had fun. On Saturday I got to have lunch at Nine Five Pho which is one of my favorite restaurants!

In the evening, the four of us went kayaking! ๐Ÿ›ถ It was interesting to do that at night. Didn’t get good photos of the actual kayaking but we got a couple of goofy selfies.

Kayaking at night was very different and fun. The water was so warm!

Porcini ๐Ÿ„ [Icon]

An icon commission for SonarToxicFox! ๐Ÿ„โœจ

๐Ÿ„ Artwork is ยฉ 2022 by Marina Neira McKinzie. You may NOT copy, color, reference, repost or use this artwork in any way or claim it as your own. Only the commissioner/giveaway winner & those featured in the artwork may repost with credit and following my Terms of Use.