I’ve been a little quiet recently I know. Sorry about that! Been getting the house looking a little nicer, and decorated, working on commissions, working on my books, and yes, still dealing with my depression too. It’s still a heavy weight on my shoulders. I am doing the best I can. I hope you are all doing well, too. Anyway this was my lunch today, a cucumber and cream cheese sandwich 🥪 🥒
I allowed myself to game a little today. Maplenut kept me company:
And so did Kotoko! This is a bad photo, but Kotoko is heavy and she wasn’t letting me move really or even breathe!
Then it was time for a snacc:
Something to look forward this weekend –baking seasonal cookies!
I’m going to a Littles meet on Sunday, and trying to stay busy and cheerful. Hope you all have a wonderful Friday! 🎃
Last night I slept with Janie. I hadn’t slept with a stuffie in some time, generally I fear ruining them in some way. But I thought Janie has been stored except for Christmas at her old home got many years now so I wanted her to be snuggled like a proper teddy. 🧸💕
Here’s a little snack I had today 👻 🥓
I love these socks that bought this afternoon at Five Below. I changed into them before going out this evening.
Mmm, gummies… you want some? They’re cola flavored 🥤 MoonPie is happy to share! 🌈 Got these at Five Below also.
In addition to socks, I found suspenders today. I never had any before. I had a chance to wear them since after my walk I was such an utter mess so I had to change to go out to dinner with Christopher.
Tomorrow we are having a morning out together, garage saling and brunch. I am so excited about it because it’s been such a long time! 💕🌈
I wasn’t doing well at all mental health wise today, so I decided to try to go out for a while to the park. Just take myself in hand and at least make an effort to feel better. I started by prepping a “Little” outfit:
As some of you might notice, this is actually Chips Ahoy 2.0. During my vast purge, the original Chips Ahoy was rehomed. But I was very, very fond of the name that was originally suggested by Flen. I promised myself I would call my next panda that. Anyway here he is with my TamagotchiOn and ready for Funky Sock Friday. 🧸💕🌈
So I actually ended up going round this entire massive park in 100° heat with no water because the exit I was going to at the other end of the park was closed so I had to find the main entrance again. I think I came fairly close to heat stroke but hey! I made it out safely, and got some nice photos.
I found a more secluded spot to take a couple photos of myself, but at this point I was already dying lol 💀💦
I found two playgrounds but no swings! Hmph. But I was able to get some cute pictures of Chips Ahoy. Thankfully he’s very fuzzy otherwise his bum would have burned. Everything was hot enough to fry eggs! 🔥
I found a more secluded spot to take a couple photos of myself, but at this point I was already dying lol 💀💦
I will tell you it’s a lot harder to think of fun selfie captions when you’re depressed. Like. Here’s my face. I’m smiling. I don’t really feel like it, but there it is, because I’m not gonna take a sad emo selfie. Lol. Well, I’m not magically feeling better but at least I made an effort to go out and I’m proud of myself for that. I am also very very sweaty. Oh god. So sweaty.
And here we are! Listening to music and drawing and having a pumpkin spice Frappuccino and a feta and spinach pretzel. 🎃🥨
When I get tired I’ll head home and hop in the shower. Do I feel better? I don’t know. Maybe? I’m sweaty and tired, I guess that’s a distraction at least.
I woke up around 6am today when Christopher went downstairs for painkillers for his headache. He felt bad for waking me up but I was very glad (not about his headache lol) because I have wanted to be up earlier for some time, so I can go out and cheer up a little.
To be honest I’ve been feeling a little lonesome and depressed. 😞 I want to invite friends over but the house is really dirty… I’ve made a decision to have a cleaning service because with commissions, 4 cats, and 3 rats, and how massive this house is (2400 square feet 2 story with a million stupid trinkets) it’s absolutely discouraging. 😩 It can take me 2-3 days to clean it and I have to stop from sheer exhaustion. I don’t even get it fully up to scratch. So I’d rather draw for 2 days and pay someone else to come do it. 🤷♀️
Yesterday I finished paying Christopher off for Megaplex expenses so now I’m saving the money for the cleaning. Then I can invite friends over without being embarrassed. Ah, that good ol’ Latin woman guilt about the house…! 😅 It’s also what kept me from hiring someone all this time. I’m supposed to be good at this right?? That’s some sort of self-racism right there… but these stereotypes are hard to shake off. I can’t cook, either. Lol.
Because today I got up so early, the rats were still active and excited. It was nice to see them so perky. I watched the sunrise from my window… now it’s time to start my day.
Soon after I got ready to head out to Dollar Tree 🌳 and do some grocery shopping. This is hands down my favorite pair of overalls currently!
You couldn’t see my socks but they are decently cute too:
Also, I love this bracelet so freaking much!! myrcurystoybox gave it to me at Megaplex last August. It’s one of my favorites!
While out and about, I noticed Spirit Halloween is getting ready to open! 🎃 🍁 🍂🕸🕷🦇 I can hardly wait.
My local Publix had an ecstatic Cookie Monster piñata surrounded by cookies for their BOGO deal of the week! 🍪 It was pretty funny.
I’ve been trying my best to stay cheerful and work really hard.💕🌈🧸
I thought I got the cats a seasonal toy, but it’s a condor, not a turkey. 🦃 It’s pretty funny looking, though:
Post shopping snack. ☕️ 🍪 My mood has been all over the place… Already said it, but, I can’t wait to have the house cleaned so I can decorate and then invite some friends over. I think that will do me good.
Tomoyo kept me company. To call Tomoyo a handful would be the understatement of the year. But I still love her very much.
In other news, Jane, as her original owner had named, arrived today. I tweaked that name slightly —for me, she’ll be Janie. She seemed to have a slightly smell, maybe cigarettes I don’t know, thankfully it was SUPER faint but I’m very sensitive to those, so I febreezed her and left her in the hot Florida sun a few hours. Good as new!
I had the shirt and bow and made the necklace, her owner sent me the little pinafore. I think Janie looks very happy in her new home!
She looks very much like a koala to me 🐨 So that’s what I think her as being.
This is gonna be one of those “whole day/updated as I go” posts… which are always a bit strange, so bear with me as I update it. 😁
For starters, Dorito wants to wish you a happy morning! 🌞🌈 Took this pic during his morning cuddles earlier:
The storm is growing in size but has diminished in strength. Still no sign of it here. Maybe tonight? It seems we have been spared, I am infinitely grateful for this, but it is terrible what it has done to the Bahamas. Here we even have a normal mail day and schools reopen tomorrow. I might even be able to coax Christopher to take me out a while.
I’ve been taking painkillers every few hours, my cramps are bad… but I’m gonna try my best, today too, to have a good day.
It’s noon. I’m really happy! Christopher took me to Target and JoAnns and Mod Pizza and after lunch he said I can get a pumpkin spice latte! I’ve cheered up a lot! 🎃🦇🕸🕷🍂
After lunch we went to JoAnn. They were having a sale of 70% off their blizzard fleece. This is a big deal for me, I needed new fleece for the rats REALLY badly, the girls just shred it to pieces.
I use the fleece over and over since it’s their bedding (I wash it). So I got literally $100 worth of good quality fleece for $29!! I still need to cut it to fit the cage, but yeah. Good stuff. Always check the coupons, folks!! This was a single day deal with the app coupon. I’m very pleased.
I also got some fall things to decorate the studio and library!! I’m gonna decorate this week!
Stuff is from Joann and Target. I just love this time of year SO FREAKING MUCH!! Even though nothing much changes here, at least I can go crazy with my decorating, and that makes me happy.
Home again. Tres Leches is enjoying the first pumpkin spice latte of the season with me! 🎃💕
Here’s something that came in today!
I can’t recommend muninahandmade’s Tamagotchi covers highly enough!!! 💕🌈🎀 WOW!! Just so lovely and well made and there’s even a slit on top so you can still use a charm if you want to. It looks great!
Dinner for tonight 🎃 I ate a lot earlier so I wasn’t very hungry.
Hey everyone. I’m sorry for being so quiet today. 😓 Things are ok hurricane-wise. The winds are supposed to start in about an hour and last throughout the night. I’m still in the library with the window open… it’s really calm. 😶
But PMS is hitting me as hard as it did last month. 😣 I’m in a horrible, HORRIBLE mood which is a real contrast to my usual. You see all the happy posts almost every day and most of the time I’m pretty happy, but my PMS can put me in a “I hate my life/body/everything/drawing isn’t fun/reading or gaming isn’t fun/anything I eat makes me feel guilty/wish I could sleep this away but I’m not sleepy” mood… and… it sucks. 😥 I feel almost violently angry so I stay by myself so my poor husband isn’t forced to deal with me since there is nothing he can do that will cheer me up.
I tried café con leche and cookies and I hated myself for eating them. But time with the ratties and reading Little Lulu made me feel marginally better. Anyway sorry for such a long whiny post. It’s just one of those days… 🌧️
Good morning, everyone ☀️ Not feeling so good today. My period/PMS are wrecking me, the hurricane is now cat 5 and seems to be turning our way again. Who the heck knows. Cat 5 hurricanes level neighborhoods, leave them like a war zone. I guess if that happens I really enjoyed not being poor the last 6 years. It was really nice. I’m grateful. Hopefully it spares us.
I’m trying not to let my thoughts get too dark, but hormones make it hard. I’m in the library/rat room and decided to have mate today. It’s been an awfully long time since I made mate just for me (well, and MoonPie.) Usually my mom brews it when she comes over. But I really need to get in the habit.
Ever since I moved the rat cage to the library I’ve been spending time with the rats every morning. Dorito is more cheerful today:
I’m a little worried about a scab under Croissant’s ear… there seems to be no lump, just minor scabbing but it won’t go away. I may have to text my vet a photo if it doesn’t go away. I really hope she doesn’t get a ZGT (if you don’t know what that is, google it —or don’t. It’s bad. Basically if she gets it I’ll have to have her put down pretty soon, because it’s an awful way to go.) I just don’t want to lose another rat so quickly, even though unlike Dorito here, Croissant is really unfriendly most of the time. But I still love her a lot.
I suppose time will tell. I’m glad Dorito seems a bit less lethargic. He doesn’t move a lot anyway, after all he is the same age Queso was, and has the same genes. His back legs drag. But he just seems happier today, and I’m glad for that.
Anyway, I still want to be cheerful today. Hurricane or not!